I See Something That ??????......

OOHH my god!!!!.....what i have done to myself....what i have done to my love....and what i have with my own feeling....plz god, show me the real one....jangan goyahkan keimanan ku ini...setia kan lah aku....i dun want to hurt someone's heart...

i dont know what to say bout my own feeling....i dun want to say that i in ???? with somebody else because my heart and love still belongs to my one...but the way he act, the way he look, the way he talk, its make heart felt down...i was so into him!!!!!.....adoh2....gila na cmtok...

ADMIT???....

hard for me to admit....but apasalah nya if nya tell me the truth....can i say here, people may change...if thats is the best for them, why not right?....my relationship is still in knowing each other more....so, in this case, he make me suffer with my own feeling...yahhh...make me tertanya2, what am i to him exactly....

i feel easy, fun and enjoy when i with him...hes like understand talk like adult...thinking like adult...that was the best part of him..understanding too....ooww...kalau lh ku tek s*****...hahaha...byk lah...everything what he say is like giving me a clue..i dun know wheather thats is for me or somebody else....he got lots of friends...so im not good enough for him...i think so...besides, he always praise this girl at my C*****...so, he probably likes that girl....nevermind, just let it go...i like to see him happy too...

but, if can, plz let me know...here can i say, who knows that you are the one...i dun know why my heart keep telling me something that i couldn't explain...something happen around me that i didn't realise...

Always Love You Syg!!!~~~.....

EVERYDAY, EVERYNIGHT THRU EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY...I KEEP TELLING YOU SYG THAT I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO SO SO MUCH!!!~~......

so, now cyg bok jak lepas bukak posa tewk...kenyang na tok...p x tauk mok polah pa lok evendo byk kerja nunggu..just now, my finger tok ingin nak naip something...just sharing with you guys bout what that i have been thru in this few days...well, most probably that i want to say is i seriously makin in love dengan cik Mohamad Nur Akmal....hehehe...that is the secret of long everlasting relationship....kita harus mencintai pasangan kita setiap hari meskipun pa juak dugaan melanda..jangan dikenang peristiwa yg pernah menyakitkan hati...pandang ke depan dan ingat sinaran kebahagiaan menanti....

as now, i spend most of my time with my hubby...coz ya jak pat buat sha rasa happy and rapat ngan syg sha...mun x, konpom sha bercarik jak2...so, sha ilek2 ngan mal...sha sharing and understand mun syg sha ada masalah.....sha sama2 ada di sisi nya mun ada masalah...

suma toklah buat sha, kadang2 sampey ng berdoa x mok lepas dan kehilangan mal....Syg umpama mengerti sha dan berik sha sesuatu yg sha x pernah dpt dari mana2 laki sebelum tok...

di ctok, cyg mok pdh ngan bie yang xda bnda lain yang sha inginkan lam dunia tok mun agik lam hubungan ta duak tok yg...just KASIH SAYANG, CINTA BIE jak sha maok..xda lain...sha x milih apa harta benda...ya bukan ukuran yg sha mintak...sha lebih memilih utk menyayangi dirik ktk yg dan sha inginkan kasih syg ktk...xda lain...sumpah..xda lain..ya jak sha mntk...

Sayang jak sha bie dengan penuh kasih sayang....dengan ya bok sha happy buat selamanya hingga ke akhir hayat ta duak bie....

I LOVE YOU SYG!!~~...xkan lejuk sha ucapkan tok pada syg...emmwaaahhhh!!~~....

PUASA..RAMADHAN AL-MUBARAK TELAH MENJELANG...

SALAM RAMADHAN SEMUA.....

tanggal 11.8.2010, bermulalah sekali lagi umat muslimin dan muslimat menunaikan ibadah puasa d bln mulia bln ramadhan ini....berpuasalah dan ikutilah sunnah nabi...berpuasalah seperti mana yg telah ditetapkan kaum terdahulu sebelum kamu...

and secondly, ini puasa kedua ku hadapi tanpa org tersayang di sisi....amat mendalam bagiku ketiadaan insan bernama ibu di sisi...amat ku merindui dirinya...tidak ku sedari, telah hampir 2 thn beliau meninggalkan kami...

namun, ku syukuri, pada puasa dan raya kali ini, ku di temani dengan insan bernama SYG....dia telah hadir untuk bersama merayakan hari mulia ini...amat ku syukuri nikmat yg telah Allah beri padaku....sesungguhnya, terubat dan terisi jua hati ku ini dengan insan ku sayangi berada di sisi...semoga puasa dan raya kali ini dtg penuh erti kepada diriku dan pada dirinya...amin.....

ShioHHH!!!~~...EWhhhhhHH....MISS BABY AIEE!!~~

bok jak jap tek jmpa syg....x lamak ada...lom abis lepas rindu tek yg...gik windu mek ngan tak tek yg....rindu abis!!!~~...

ari tok 10. 8...jam 9.15 mlm syg dtg umah...ambk brg....x lmk..lam 9.45 dh plg balit....aieee, rindu ewh....mok lamak gik p xpat...

mun camtok yg ewh, asal jmpa tauk rindu balit, KAWEN jak ta duak yg....haha...yer, alu lah...perasaan x mok jaoh tok lah ssh ilak yg...sakit bh yg..mok dekat ngan ktk jak...

heiisshh!!~~....boh lok ewh....jauh gik ya..jauh perjalanan syg...mek gik nk belajar lok..abis lok belajar...crk lok kerja....kerja mena smpy menimbun duit...kakya bok syg msk meminang...mek mok after ta dirikan rumah tangga, everything is complete...xda yg kurang atau pa2 jak...mun d kurniakan anak tyme ya pun, everything ckp buat keluarga...kmk x mntk mewah cuma cukup segalanya pakey kita sekeluarga...mek mok sederhana ajak...

ya janji kita bersama kn yg...kmk hormat ktk as you are my true husband now...love you forever syg, baby, honey, bie, hubby and my dear!!~~...muaahhhhhh.....love..love..love...love..you..you..you...

PULLMAN HOTEL AND RESORT....

in banquet uniform...

kerja kat RIVERSIDE MAJESTIC HOTEL.....

me with my adik ipar....hahaha...ikqmaL....

Yer!!!~~...time world lah tewk...hahaha..21..ada meaning ya bai...kacak lak meaning ya...hehehe.

Jam 11.11 p.m..napa d polah??....

hello people...i know, maybe ada nya bgn or dh tertido...tapi tonight, tgn mek pndy tergerak nk nulis dlm blog indah..so, tulis jak lah...xda pa2 wak..nunggu owg juak senanya...so, smbl tulis blog, smbl mek nenga lagu melayu LAMA PUNYER!!~~..oldies lah juak...so, as the ingatan lah..time mek nulis tok, lagu tgh berkumandang is lagu Amy Seacrh - Seribu Tahun Takkan Mungkin....ermm....layan bai...nyaman palak ngan lagu lamak...layan jiwa time tok...

well.....so, today...my relationship with Mohd. Nur Akmal have gone for 4 month and 2 weeks...glad to know him until this moment....no regret at all....spnjg tempoh, setiap masa dan saat, mendekatkan diri ku padanya...syg bertambh sayang...perasaan takut xpat d buang coz apa??..TAKUT KEHILANGAN ENCIK AKMAL...hehehe....i wish, i could be with him till the end of my life....i hope, this relationship end with marriage....happy family ever after...that is the only wishes i want it came true....

akmal adalah cinta terakhir meskipun bkn pertama...namun, akmal juaklah penyinar cinta ku dlm hidup tok....he gives me that other people could give me...4 bln perkenalan, setiap apa dlm dirinya, telah ku kenali...hati budi nya...x mungkin ku dpt cari pengganti insan bernama akmal dlm hidup tok...aku gembira, akmal menerima aku seadanya...tanpa sebarang kekesalan pada dirinya....

andai pernah suatu hari nanti, berlaku sesuatu yg tidak diingini ant ku dan akmal....ku doakan segala yg terbaik bg dirinya...kasih syg, layanan & segalanya ku halalkan pd dirinya..ikhlas dr ku..bahkan syg, cyg mintak halal mkn minum segala apa yg telah syg berik ngan cyg....

x terkata cmny nak mdh betapa hargai cyg ngan semua ya...

dalam hidup, mungkin ada 3 tempat jak yg akan sha bw diri tenangkan dri mun d landa masalah...tempat tok mengingatkan sha pada akmal...sebab pabila sha ingat akmal, sha rasa tenang dn lepas segalanya walaupun hati tgh geram...that place is PASIR PANDAK, CAT MUZIUM and MY ONE FAV PLACE( dlm hati mek jak tauk, mun tauk, tauk lh ya)...semua tempat tok, pernah mek duak akmal pergi..kenangan ada d cya...bnda me duak tangga...mek duak sebut tok ya...msh lam ingatan...byk kenangan....cukup byk..

walau ada pun mslah melanda mek duak, tp mek duak x ambk ms lamak nak recover...ssh juak hidup sha mun lmk2 kaie ngan akmal...bkn ya sifat sha....kaie lamak2...hati sha lembut...senang nk d ambk...tapi,hanya sorang jak pat buat sha cmya....

LAstly, to end this, doa lah buat hubungan sha supaya berpanjangan hingga ke anak cucu dan ke hujung nyawa sha...bersama insan bernama akmal jak...Syg, cyg sayang tak gilak2 yg...kitak jak di hati mek yg....mun sesuatu terjadi pada diri kmk, ingat jak, cinta ktk di hati kmk sorang...xda sapa dpt memiliki tempat ktk dlm hati kmk yg....LOVE YOU SYG!!!~~...muahhhh!!~~

What i feel for today??....

K....firstly, i nak cakap, dh berlapuk dh bnda nie x d bkk....since i busy gila ngan semester 1....sampey blog pun x smpt d update...sian eyh...hehehe...
well, for you guys information who read my blog, i'm now officially in semester 2 and pass in semester 1 without fail...yeeppeeee!!!~~....
best2....ng struggle mena juak lh in sem 1 in order to pass all the subjects...thank god everything goin' thru smothly....really2 thank god...

so, what am i doing during sem holiday....WORK!!!~~..KERJA!!!~~..CNEY?....PART-TIME LER!!~~..hehehe...rajin lak tek nak....x..xdalah..just k isik masa terluang jak...bowing wak dok umah xda wat pa2...at least kuar keja crk pengalaman cmney nk deal ngan people...cmny asa kerja bh...ya jak...

ermm...place that i pilih mok gilak k kerja that is at Pullman Hotel and Riverside Hotel....yupp...that is the easies place to apply some part-time job....kerja banquet...mun x tauk, now let me share with all of you, what is it?...

so, banquet...kerja mcm waitress wak but the different is, kita x ambk order...we just send out food to them....ok...let say, that night got function, party or what so eva, you have to prepare everything for that function...so, usually before the function, all the staff will doing some briefing on how this function goin'....from A-Z...all the menus in you will divided into a team....each team will have your own section leader....
so, first day kerja, quiet nerbes coz i don't know anything..so, i worked with people who done that job before...suprisingly tek, my section leader is my lovers mother....WHAT!!!~~...hahaha...mama akmal....yupp, i know she work there but i seriously x sangka akn bertemu cmya jak ngan mama nya....wuippss....bergegar palak lutut bai....ni gaya tok...mcm2 lam palak...pa nak d padh...pa d loyar...haha...so, ku mbak palak steady, let everything flow by it own...function that night started at 3 o-clock and end by 12 mid-night....
seriously, people who never done the job like standing for 8 hrs without seated and kept walking ang bringing lot of heavy stuff, will suffer from leg damage...haha..all the tissues in you leg will gonna blow up...sakit bai....SAKIT EWH!!~~...haha..that for my first week job...but comes 2nd, 3rd and so on...i get used to it...everyday, become,easier and much easier...with a bit guidance, i managed to complete my work...than, i also work at riverside...it is when i got no duty at pullman so i moved to riverside...everything is same but the different, riverside GM is cooler and rilex that GM at pullman...haha...i sun know why...maybe the stress of their work...maybe..
so,i kept on working for 3 weeks..until my end sem holiday...then i stopped my work...
memories during sem holiday...during that, i was given a chance to get know akmal's family well...i keep been inviting to their house...their being good to me...thanks a lot..